The sadness

Sunday morning.Today is anniversary of our relationship.I've got a lot of plans that will I go through with him. At 5 I was up and dawn prayers. After that I take a shower and breakfast. Promptly at 9 am I called Steve to congratulate him for the 2nd anniversary of our relationship. Steve replied modest. I'm a little confused as to why he's like that. But maybe he just got up. Hehehe .
Steve picked me up this afternoon. I dressed up as pretty as possible. I do not want this special day goes just like that. Exactly at 11 noon steve picked me up. as usual I hold him on motorcycle. I engage him in conversation. Occasionally I add a little joke. But he cool. This is not steve. I asked if there is something wrong with me. But he said no. I accept it was his attitude.
Not long after we arrived at shopping center. Steve always hold my hand or arm when walking along. But today was different. He did not take my hand. Oh god what's wrong with him.he was silent all the way. No single word out of his mouth. Although I always engage him in conversation but he just answered modest. I'm confused. I'm sad
Eventually we reached at XXI. We watch a drama movie. During the movie once in a while I’d look at him. But his eyes cold. the tears falling down my cheeks. I do not know why I cried. I think the movie was not so sad. Then why am I crying? Is it because steve? Oh god
During the movie is playing I just cried. And finally the film was ended. We went home. On the way I do not speak anything to him. I was quite disappointed for his treatment to me today. finally he spoke to me. "We End"
It was heart stopped beating when he said it. Mixed feelings. I do not know what to say. Sentence I can say is "why, what have I done?". He just said things that I think makes no sense. He's just making excuses.
Me and steve ended in the 2nd anniversary of our relationship. This is the 2nd time he dumped me.
Steve, do you know if I really love you. I always try to be the best for you. I was always faithful to you. But why did you let me down ..

After a few days before I knew that he already had new girlfriend ..
Loved to be hurt. Maybe it's the right word for me.
To steve who now with me. Do not repeat your mistake at the past, because i always love you forever..